Discliamer: THE LATE GREAT PENDRELL belongs to CC (DIE DIE DIE for
killing our dear lab-boy), 1013, and fox. oh yeah-they own M & S too.
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WARNING: US4 spoilers! MAX!
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Rating: hey i actually wrote a G one! ::dances around the computer::
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Classification: PA (pendrell angust)
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Summary: our dear little lab-boy gets a second chance...but at what price?
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Sorry for the delay in this one...max was almost 2 weeks ago...i finally
recovered from shock and wrote this...let me know what u think? i am not a
good angust writer...vampires 9 is almost ready...is anyone still reading
that???
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It sounds like something out of a fairy tale. But I at least know it's not.
This is too cruel to be a fairy tale. 

I guess I should start from what happened after the ambulance took me away. 

Shortly after they took me away from HER I could start to feel everything
start to slip away. Those jokes in the movies when the dying actor says
'everything is going dark' is the exact opposite of what happens. Everything
kept getting brighter and brighter until it all went white. 

I was surrounded by the whiteness. It wasn't light, it was the absence of
color. It was peaceful. Then the voice came and invaded my peace.

"Would you do ANYTHING for her love?" The voice boomed.

That was all the voice said, but it was such a broad statement. Of course my
reply was 'yes anything'. Not in a million years would I wish this on anyone.
Not even my worst enemy.

Everything again went white. Which leads me to where I am now.  I am standing
infront of apartment # 42. There is a gun in my hand. Without hearing the
instructions, I know what they are. Kill the one person that has kept me from
Dana -Fox William Mulder. In reward I will have Dana's love.   

I am shocked at the hardness of the gun in my hand. Even though I didn't need
it for m job with the Bureau, I still learned how to use one. I have
practiced at a shooting range once or twice, but I never really made it a
habit of carrying one. I think this is mainly due to my major fear of guns.
True irony that the very thing I fear is what ended my life.

I can't even begin to express in words the mental tug-of-war that is going on
in my head right now. The best description of it is the like the cartoons
where two angels are on the person's shoulder. One angel -the bad angel- is
telling me to go for it, that I deserve her love and that Mulder doesn't
deserve her. The other angel -the good angel- is telling me to stop because
to kill Agent Mulder would be to kill Dana.

I knock on the door. My hand that is holding the gun goes clammy. 

I hold my breath as the door swings open. I am met with a wide-eyed Fox
Mulder. The color drains from his face.

Despite the good angel's screams, I raise the gun. My hand is shaking. Mulder
just stares at me, his eyes widen even more (though I didn't think that
possible).

My whole body is shaking now. Two thoughts run through my head. 'Go for what
 should be yours' and 'Stop and think of Dana'. 

I drop my arm that is holding the gun to my side. I can feel tears begin to
spring from my eyes. I want her love.  I raise my arm again and steady the
gun. I aim the gun at Mulder's chest.

I notice that Mulder is shaking too. I am probably giving the poor guy a
heart attack. I myself would never believe this. I think this has to be some
twisted nightmare. At least I pray it is.

I look at the gun that is in my out stretched arm, leveled at the man before
me's chest. I can't kill another human being. But I want her love so bad. I
have tried for her love so many times. My boldest move was at the bar. I am
guessing that the only reason I had the courage to offer her a drink was I
was drunk myself.

I need her love. I have thirsted for it for so long, that I can't pass up the
chance for it. Yet I can't shot him. If I kill him, I will break her heart. I
can't do that. I can't let my greed break her heart. That would make me hate
myself and I would not be able to love her.

The good angel wins.

I drop the gun on the ground.  Everything goes bright again.

I am unsure of my fate, yet I know I made the right choice. I can't break her
heart. I can't. And I won't.
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crappy ending?? i dunno..just let me know what u think please?????send
comments
to: jadecow14@aol.com